Trying to find a middle ground…
You don’t realize how attached you were to something,
Until you start to let go.
Somewhere in my excitement over my accomplishment,
Nervousness for now and fear of what’s ahead.
I should be happy. I am happy.
I see people I know, once strangers, now family.
Tears cloud my eyes as I make my way up.
Every color around me suddenly brings back a sweet memory.
And the hole in my chest when I realize its all over.
This is it!
After today, it all changes.
And then it comes down to these last few steps.
I feel everyone of them.
Everything around me starts to fade.
All I hear, my own breaths,
And these last few steps.
All so faintly,
I hear them.
These strangers, that grew to love me.
Screaming, cheering, my name.
I see us. I see fun, I see laughter, I see comfort.
I see love.
I look up. I smile. I smile when I think of you.
I receive my victory, I say thank you…to you.
Thank you for my life.
Thank you for making me so lucky….
…Thank you for my life.
I look her in the eye. My new found strength.
I take what’s mine.
I earned it.
I made it!